Сегодня произошёл очень милый инцидент. Пол дня я переписывалась с мальчишкой, которого нанял П. взломать мой аккаунт.

Games, doomscrolling and almost a year out of work have definitely affected my brain. I just can't concentrate on anything, I just want to play games, eat and sleep, nothing else.

Pathetic, really.

Satisfying, too.

It's been a few years, and I should stop referring to this country as mine, and stop associating myself with that place, stop reading the news about most recent events and so on.

My family is there, and these news articles help me feel not so worried about them.

I hate the government, though, and what they have done to my country. It had such a gigantic potential. It was so good in so many aspects. It was where I grew up. Now there is only eternal prison of hate, families that split because of ideology, and life full of threats for so many people. I feel so much sorrow for what life there could have been.

I hate them so much for what they did to my country and its neighbors. Every time I think about it, I hate them. I will never, ever forgive.